Just when I was contemplating deleting my Facebook account I read a shared blog post and it all came back to me why I became a part of the biggest networking site on the face(book) of the planet....to NETWORK! The information some of my friends share on their walls is invaluable to me. From recipes I would've never tried to articles that shake me to my core like the one I'm about to share with you.
Maybe it will not have as profound of an effect on you as it did me. My struggle with the attainment of perfection started very early in my life and has become a burden in recent years almost to heavy to bear. So first, I ask that you read the blog post here:
http://www.danoah.com/2010/09/disease-called-perfection.html
Then read my dose of real. Then do the same for yourself, be bold, be courageous and well...a little less perfect.
Sarah's dose of real:
I am not satisfied or even remotely happy with myself due to a deep seated depression but, I put on a front for most people because I am scared of what they will think of me.
I sometimes hate the way I look so much that I cry or throw private temper tantrums when I have social obligations to go to.
I project my need to be perfect onto my son and it breaks my heart to hear him tell me he's not good enough. I feel like a monster.
I am not happy in my marriage a lot of the time but, I keep hanging on because I don't want to be a failure and I feel like divorce will irrevocably damage Aidan like it damaged me.
I am addicted to sugar and struggle with it on a daily basis and then I get angry about the weight I continue to gain as the years pass.
I am very sensitive and take offense to what a lot of people say to me but, I keep my feelings about it inside because I don't want to appear weak or emotional.
So there you have it folks. I am not perfect, no where near but, this blog was a big wake up call to me to stop pretending or portraying that I am. Although I will continue to blog about the "laughing and growing" parts of our life, please know that there are a lot of less than perfect moments in the St.Godard household and will continue to be. Maybe now I will learn to accept and be proud of those moments too!
Until next time friends, family. Feel free to share your doses of real!
Sarah
Good for you Sarah, alot of us have all these secrets about our private lives, that we never tell our closest loved ones afraid of what they will think. It's great to see someone willing to be so real! We are always here to listen, laugh, and give advice whenever you need a shoulder. Love you with all our hearts...just the way you are.
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Just tell it like it is Girl! We all have things that we don't like about ourselves and hide from people. But as long as you are true to yourself first then to the ones closest to you, you will be forever happy! Life is hard, marriage is hard, just remember to laugh and things always seem a bit better when you can laugh! Don't be afraid to say what you feel when you feel it. And if you do, and people don't like it then that's just too bad on their part! I know, been there done it a few time myself! LOL Life does go on, and people get over things, if not not your problem, it's theirs. Hang in there, we're always around if you need anything and I mean anything!
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Yeah what Josie said !
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